so here it is..
yes, i am in calgary as i type this entry and im here for a pseudo-vacation. this is not the best travelling outfit, but i had to wear my heaviest pieces of clothing so that it won't add to my carry-on weight.
the ironic thing is im actually staying with my cousin here, while he's staying at his uncle's place and we're both at odd ends of the city. so as to meeting up and actually spending decent time together, i dont know yet how that will happen.
it's been bittersweet really.. hence the oh-so-dramatic entries i've been having. i want to be the most supportive girlfriend and say that i want him to succeed. if that would take for him to settle here, then im all for it because i seriously believe in him. i know given the right opportunity and environment, he's going to be someone great.
but of course, as much as i want to feel that, there's still that hint of sadness due to the uncertainty of where and how will our relationship continue. i don't want to doubt what we have because i know and feel that it's right, but there's always that underlying thought of whether we really are for each other at the end. i know im being paranoid (even he tells that to me), but i can't help it since this set-up is not all new to me -- been there, done that type of thing.
anyway, i really want to focus on the good side of this whole trip. at least, im here and actually can claim that im having a vacation. the weather is pretty awesome here and i can't wait to see the sites, the malls, the food and generally the city itself. i guess i'll just have to make the most out of it.